The Never Ending Story of My Life

Excerpt from What to do when its your turn

Excerpt from What to do when its your turn

Seth talks a lot about being stuck and how to get unstuck in his What to do when it's your turn book. Today, for the Your Turn Challenge, Winnie is asking me to give advice about how to get unstuck. 

“Stuck” is just a flashier word for doubt. In my case, I was always stuck in self-doubt. Self-doubt is the life killer, the Nothing. I spent the better part of my teens and early twenties with The Nothing on my heels. My subconscious mantra was, “what if it’s not good enough?” or “what if I’m not good enough?’ or “what if it doesn’t work out the way I want it to or plan?” or “it’s too difficult and there’s too much risk.”

Eventually, I came to realize these were just excuses, and I was taking a greater risk by not embracing life, its wonders, and the freedom and joy of expressing my curiosity and passion.

Faith the impossible

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Despite intellectually understanding this, banishing the Nothing takes a leap of faith. It is a choice. It takes conscious effort. For a person that was let down and disappointed by one of the most important figures in life, the concept of trust and faith seem impossible. Willingly putting myself in the position to get let down, by embracing life fully, and facing my fears, has been one of my greatest challenges. I still struggle with it.

It might seem easier and more convenient to give in to the Nothing and stay stuck, but the end result is only self-inflicted misery.

It's because of you

The biggest motivator for me in making the choice to be free and embrace life, to work toward banishing the Nothing, was the realization that I am connected to you. We share energy. I might not know you. We might be Facebook acquaintances or lifelong friends, but that is inconsequential. Every thought and action I take emits the intention and energy behind that thought or action into physical reality, and so do yours. I decided to stop contributing to the Swamp of Sadness and make the conscious effort to fight the Nothing by practicing Small Acts of Kindness, Generosity, Compassion, Gratitude, Sustainability, Self-love, Intention, and any other good act I can imagine. Only in this way have I found real fulfillment and genuine lasting happiness in life.

I don't have the answer, but my hand is still raised

I can’t do it all the time and I’m not perfect at it, but I am doing it nonetheless. I was always the person who raised a hand first in class. I had all the right answers. Now I’m admitting that I don’t really have all the answers. I don’t know how things will turn out, and things might never get “fixed.” I accept these truths and the mystery that is life.

I am learning to have faith in myself and something greater: the energy that we share and the magic it can manifest. I practice having trust and understand that things will work out the way they will work out, and sometimes the outcome is beyond my control. I marvel in the majesty that is our planet. I get unstuck, simply by making the choice. I have seen the sunrise more times so far this year than I have in my whole life, only because I choose to get out of bed and revel in that miracle.

What good have you done lately?

So perhaps when you’re stuck, ask yourself, “what good have I done lately?” and your unstuck will lie in the faith that your conscious effort to share positive energy will contribute toward a better future because Small Acts Count.

Decision is a risk rooted in the courage of being free.
— Paul Tillich